Sunday, May 22, 2011

Back To December


 
I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time

最近。。。

最近比较少上来写了,不是没有开心或不开心的东西想说。可能最近比较懒惰吧,上来了,就只会看人家的,自己就不要写,哈哈。

最近的烦恼
最近以为自己烦恼的东西终于解决了,哪里知道解决之前,叫我先准备那个“东西”。朋友,如果我有早就自己解决了,还要找你吗?还有几天就到了,我都不知道要如何准备,烦啊。。。

最近的事业
最近一直有去面试工作,那些大公司非常喜欢问:“为什么要来我们的公司上班?”。Walao,就是你们公司要请人,我才来啦,难道要我说:“你们的公司很好啊”或“我觉得我在这里能发挥我的才能”之内的话啊?对不起咯,我就是那么直的,不要叫我替你擦鞋。

那天老板又叫我去喝茶,又来答应我这个那个的。我很累了,我从你们给我的大约20多个顾客,和大约10,000的生意,现在我的顾客大约70到80个,生意也大约在60,000到80,000了,最近也努力保持每个月最少8x,xxx的生意,现在又要我做到1xx,xxx。不是我不要,我也很努力了,而且我努力到现在,我认为老板们认为我没什么好,所以也没什么的奖励我。我的车每天载到满满,这里去,那里去,你们给我的津贴也不够我修理我的“战车”。不管了,你们要怎样就怎样,我只是打工的。。。


最近的生活
虽然最近真的很烦恼,不过“混”的还不错。有时在“老婆”的家到迟迟;有时和朋友一起玩Monster Hunter 3 或者 Left 4 Dead 2;有时且一个人在家发呆,看戏那样。说到看戏,最近的戏真的令我很失望,每个感觉很像不错,去看了全部“吐口水”,如那个关云长,Thor和Priest那样。只有那个 Fast And Furious 5好看而已。






不说了,现在要睡觉了,晚安。。。

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

生存的意义。。。

不知道在什么地方,从什么时候开始,我开始思考我生存的意义。
我已经二十五岁了,也不知道自己为什么而活着,我开始迷惑了。

看看外面的世界:
有些人早出晚归一直在工作着,努力着;
有人在环游世界,天天享受着山珍海味;
有人在谈情说爱,为爱情的事情而烦恼;
有人在培养后代,为孩子的未来而犯愁;
也有人在吸毒,嫖娼,甚至一直在战争。

有些人活得很充实;
过着的生活丰富多彩,有滋有润。
有些人过得很空虚;
过着的生活枯燥无味,暗淡无光。

我们为什么活着?
有人说活着是为了赚大量的钱。
有人说他活着是为了游戏人生。
也有人说活着是为了建设国家。
有人说是他是为了别人而活着。

大部分人都是这样走过一生的:
出生,娱乐,学业,工作,爱情,婚嫁,养育,退休,去世。
不管形式有何不同,一代一代的,人类一直重复着这个流程。

那么我活着是为了什么?
爱情?
工作?
家人?
享受?
受苦?
等死?

我真的不知道,可能我真的是迷惑了,失去方向了。。。
不知何时开始我时常会握一握手,然后看着它,然后默默的告诉自己,我还活着。。。
只是不知为了什么而活着。。。

Friday, May 6, 2011

Because Of You



I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

如果。。。

记得在我二十四岁时,
我们遇见了,然后在一起,
我们牵手去见彼此的家人,
以获取他们的认同与支持。

如果当我二十五岁时,
我们还在一起,我会为了你,而努力去工作,
努力的去把我的经济去弄好,努力的去存钱。

如果当我二十六岁时,
我们还在一起,我会一直带你去旅行,
我会为了我们的未来,而开始储蓄钱。

如果当我二十七岁时,
我们还在一起,我一定向你求婚,
然后我们一起用心经营我们的家。

如果当我三十一岁时,
我们还在一起,不管周围的人如何分分和和,
我们会一起牵手走过那三年之痛、七年之痒,
继续着我们已约定好的幸福美满的爱情之路。

如果当我已四十岁时,
我们还在一起,
就算最初的激情已被现实生活的影响,一切已回复平淡,
但彼此依然会追逐着对方的身影,我依旧也会为你努力。

如果当我已五十岁时,
我们还在一起,  
孩子们会离开我们去寻找他们的幸福,
虽然会想念着他们,但依旧还有你陪在我的身边,
每天傍晚手牵手一起散步,一起分享彼此的东西。

如果当我五十五岁时,
我们还在一起,我们都应该休息了,
我们会一起去想去而沒去过的地方。

如果当我已七十岁时,
我们还在一起,我们会每天躺在搖椅上一洒太阳,
虽然不知道生命会走到哪一天,因为有你的陪伴,
我不再害怕生命的尽头,而享受生命中的每一天。

如果当我走到生命的最后一天时,
我希望身边有你的陪伴,我不要做那個留下來的人,
请让我自私的先离开这个世界,又或者你坚持不了,
我愿意陪你一同离去,因为没有你的世界是冰冷的。



所以,亲爱的,如果到了哪一天请让我先离去,
或带我一起走,因为曾经属于我们彼此的幸福,
我一个人是接收不完的。。。